Kicking away discontentment.

Kicking away discontentment. If there is anything I needed to talk about it is this. I’m notorious for feeling like a failure. In all aspects of my life. That whole superwoman thing. I pretend to be that. My mom and dad raised me to be independent, strong, hold my shoulders up, keep pushing forward no matter the circumstances and just be Me. The exuberant Jaime Swoager. Realizing along the way that the more I “try” the less I have control. I have to halt. To end these thoughts that I have allowed from the enemy to creep in. I am strong. I am enough. I am capable. I am a good wife. mom. daughter. sister. friend. teacher. person. I am superwoman. In my own way.

Here lately I have been trying to find all the answers. Why do I allow these negative thoughts to invade my head? Why do I rely on other peoples opinions of me to feel worthy? Why do I continuously search for answers in the wrong places. Why? Because I enjoy being discontent. Apparently. I not beating myself up about this. I am owning it. I am ready to finally let go and let God. Fully. Not just for moment. Allowing myself to just be happy in His grace. Yep, its that easy. Taking the time to realize where my insecurities lie and kick them OUT. I am tired of resetting. Restarting. Resuming. Recommitting. Every. single. thing. happens. for. a reason. Why reset? Take this opportunity to love this chapter of my story. I don’t want to ever look back and regret not seeing the big flashing sign saying “You are Happy. Beautiful. Enough.”

This part of my story is where I am. Is all about growth. To learn from mistakes. Letting go of excuses. Discontentment. Do you ever feel this way? Have you gotten to a point in your journey where you feel like it’s not where you want to be. Skinner. Wrinkle free. Best friend ever. Wear just the right outfit. Hot Mom. Firmer bottom. Better hair. Less cellulite. Perkier boobs. Trophy wife. The list goes on. Listen you are enough. I am enough. I will not stop saying it. YOU MY FRIEND ARE PERFECT. FEARFULLY. and WONDERFULLY MADE. We have to cease with this crazy thinking. Your happiness does not depend on what size you are. Who your friends are. If you are the perfect 10. It depends on YOU. You owning that every part of your body, story, life is for this very reason. To shape you into YOU. So cutoff negativity. Find yourself. Own this chapter. Embrace it. Find freedom in knowing we have all been there done that. This moment. Right now. It’s time. KICKING AWAY ALL DISCONTENTMENT. Forever and Always. We are in this together.