Loving me.

Loving me. Day 1. I catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror. I get angry. Discouraged. Defeated. Picking myself apart. I can’t. I won’t do this anymore. I WILL love myself where I am today. My sweet friend, Cori reminded me. God has been teaching me this all along. As usual. Not listening.

At that moment, I realized I was struggling. Struggling to love me. It’s hard. Struggling your whole life with how you truly see yourself. It’s hard to break those habits. It’s a constant battle of being your skinniest self. Not focusing on being happy and loving the moment that you are in. It sucks. Realizing that you never learned to truly love yourself. Constantly comparing. Constantly chasing. Worrying about what others think instead of what’s important, what HE thinks.

I just want to be happy with me. Love me. Embrace the bittersweet moments that I have right in front of me. Enjoy this life. Stop chasing the what ifs and concentrate on the most important thing…loving me. One day at a time. It’s not going to be easy. Bad habits are hard to break. But realizing Jesus. Is all I need

I will reflect today something a sweet friend sent me.

We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. Thank you for the reminder Stef.

As I focus on today and today only…I pray that you and I will truly find joy, happiness, and truly love who we are.