Happy in maintenance.

So here it is. I had to take a step back this week and actually take a break from being distracted. Preoccupied. That whole busy body thing I do so well. I took a couple days off to really dig deep. Study. Listen. Rest. Real down time. Today after a week of unplugging. Being here. At my happy place. Things start to make more sense.

I talked with my mom today and it really struck a cord. Maintenance is hard. It’s probably the hardest part of our journey. I thought that when I reached lifetime with WW I would be happy. Content. I am there but realizing there is work to be done. I know that I have to teach myself and others that living healthy, happy and stronger is up to us. Taking each day as a new beginning. Even if we completely screwed up. It’s taking everything that I’ve learned and helping others realize it can be done. Consistency. Grace. And loving me (you) through the process. Yep it’s a process. Quick fixes don’t work. Fad diets don’t work. What works is adjusting what we have always done. So our results are different. A change. Breaking out of complacency. Being strong. So we find that all along we were there. Trapped in being just ok. Free to live fully again. Finally.

I want this to be a place you can visit. Feel at home. And know that I am there with you. The happy times. The hard times. With the accomplishments. The struggles. The tiny moments that just feel right. I’m far from perfect. Everyday I struggle. Feeling of defeat. That I am not enough. But I know sometimes you feel that too. It’s ok. One thing I have is experience. In every feeling. Emotion. It’s so stinkin hard. Know that this girl. Jme. Has struggled. Lost control. Dealt with depression. Anxiety. Insecurities. Felt not enough. Left out. Not the cool kid. Alone. Lost. Fat. There I said it. I still battle constantly with that word. It has a tendency to creep in. Stop. Taking me back. With His grace.

So the next couple of weeks I will share how I have managed my maintenance mode. Broken. Flawed. Maintenance. Just that. Clear and simple. How I find control. Being HAPPY. One stinkin day at a time.