Lessons learned.

Lessons learned. Hmmmm. Yes. Ugh. There are so many. Where do I begin? Ok so here it goes. I keep doing the same thing expecting different results. Why? I guess it doesn’t hurt enough. Well it does, I’m just stubborn. Are you? Do you find yourself not embracing the answers right in front of you? The big flashing neon sign? “Hey you over there…are you listening?”

Three years ago I was determined to do things differntly. I finally felt like I was learning and growing. Each day I could see a change. Not a complete change but small little adjustments to how I felt and reacted to life’s ups and downs. I felt in control. I felt like I was relearning how to be ME again. Hidden for a long time. It felt good. But I got lazy…

It happens without a warning. Slowly day by day bad habits started to creep back in. Things started to get messy, unorganized and inconsistant. I knew better. Looking at myself differently in the mirror. Frustrated with food prep. Not weighing and measuring my food. Excuses of the scale going up. Frustration with self. Not feeling enough. Worrying about small things. Busying myself. Lack of devotion time. Less quality time spent with Dave. Not engaging with my kiddos. It clicked. I had to get back to the basics. What works for me. Concentrating on what I have learned and put it into action. I can’t stop doing the things I’ve worked so hard for and give in. I know that if I want to be Me. Jme. I have to break the chains that are holding me back. OWN IT. Push through. Trust. DO IT.

What I have learned.

Stay consistant.

Love every part of your story. Beginning. Middle. Here. Now.

Don’t compare.

Write it down.

Spend quality not quanity time with those you love.

Find your “thing”

Lift others up.

Don’t fret over the square box.

Put down the phone.

Give yourself Grace.

Love YOU.

So guess what? I can finally say “I’m BACK. With the help and support of my fam and friends (you know who you are!) Full force. Not perfect. But determined this time around to LEARN. Digest. UNDERSTAND. I have sat still. Studied. Tracked. Journaled. Stayed accountable. Been Consistent. Is it that easy? Nope. I know now that just getting here is a small part of it. The best is yet to come. I am beyond ready.

See it’s doable. All you have to do is believe that your journey is your own and it’s beautiful. We have to just hault and understand that it’s not easy. It never will be. Life would be so boring if we were all the same, never had pain, struggles, obsticles and never had our share of the craziness. You and I were never promised an easy run. To see the beauty of it. Is just that. To learn. It’s part of our story. To share. So others can relate. To fully understand. So you can grow.

“I instruct you in the way of wisdom and lead you along the straight paths.” Proverbs 143:10