Face to Face

Face to Face. As I wrote my face to face post on instagram what I was writing hit a chord. It’s difficult looking at your heaviest picture, thinnest and now picture. Remembering them vividly. Each season a different feeling. Maybe the same? What have I felt? Never enough. It’s hard to point that out about myself. But it’s so true. Have you felt complacency during your journey? Do old thoughts and feelings find their way back? I fought hard to lose the weight. Not fighting hard enough to keep it off. Because? I got lazy. Content. Lost my consistency. With what I know.

I want that eagerness back. Feeling of control. For myself. My health. Mentally. Physically. Emotionally. Spiritually. Staying in this mindset that I can do it without the tools I know works has got to stop. I know what to do. Just do it already! I say this a lot and I will keep reminding myself. Getting back to the basics. Tracking. Planning. Prepping. Weighing. Measuring. Goal setting. One day at a time. Living my life fully without regret. Has to be done to be successful.

What’s my plan? Starting today. Journaling everyday. Finding peace in this season. Growing and Learning. Writing it down. Loving the process. Not giving into old habits. Finding true freedom in my journey. My path has been set. Realizing what is true. Not looking back. It’s time to look forward. To the things we can control. Letting go. Of complacency. Fear. Doubt. Worry. Letting God. It’s hard.. But. You. I. Are worth it.

My journey over the past 4 years has not been easy. It’s been stinkin hard. Finally, I truly see what I should have all along. Face to Face. Peace, strength and grace in abundance. These things were there all along. I just had to relinquish control. Do you want to take you life back? I do. I’m here for you. This story of yours. Is far from over. I’m ready to give my all. Are you? I will say every day these things. WILL YOU?

I AM ENOUGH.

I AM STRONG.

I AM LOVED.

I AM UNIQUE.

I AM BEAUTIFUL.

I AM FLIPPIN PHENOMENAL.

I AM WORTH THE FIGHT.

I WILL GET THROUGH THIS.

I AM HIS.

xoxo,

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